Laptop crashed!

Finally

I am confident I'm out of the hardcore restrict then binge cycle.  First one I've had in years, but lasted forever it seems.  I'm sure it's healthier than yo-yo'ing 10-12 lbs up and down..or more constantly!  LoLz.  Nothing is healthy when you have an ED.  uhg.  I just wish I could be happy at 105 lbs,  I know realisticly at 5'4" that is still underweight but I'm not a 00 at that weight, and even some 0's fit snug at that weight.

Now, even though I've only been restricting 5 days..but not hardcore, so I wont wanna binge.. like 600-800 has been my range..I am feeling every rib quite well but in the mirror I cannot see but a few.  I lose it fast but i feel like i gain fast too.

So busy latley

Busy as hell latley.  I'm back in school.  I'm going to school online becuase no schools around here supported what I wanted to do.  I'm going for Digital Design at the Art Institute of Pittsburgh Online. I love making things in photoshop and I've participated in several photoshop contests online (though didn't win lol..but didn't get last place either in fact I was more in the middle and that is compared to people who are extremly talented in it) and I have also *tried* participating in competitions for making a company a business logo and didn't do well at all in them lol so I need practice there but yeah thats why I'm in school now so I can get a job one day doing what I love to do.

I know I haven't been in the chatroom for like 2 weeks but I've been kinda busy.  I'm caught up with my classwork now and I've ordered all my books and software.  But it is still up and I want people to still go to it.

http://xat.com/AnaRexMyLife

In case you haven't been there yet, it's a chatroom I created for anyone who has an Eating Disorder.  It's not necessarily "pro ana" in the since that tips aren't allowed in there but anything else is open to talk about in there.  Yes I tagged it as pro ana along with the other normal tags of "anorexia, bulimia, and eating disorder"  for people doing a search but I did that because some people view pro ana diferently, not necessarily "tip giving" but pro ana to some means getting together with other anorexics/eating disordered people just to chat about our lives and make friends with the same people who share their problems.  I just wanted to specify that.

And does anyone know any calorie counting sites I can join that allows groups and actualy HAS groups already established for people with anorexia that aren't recovery orientated?  I joined caloriecounting.about.com and it has a few groups with only like 2 or 3 members but that's not very active.  I used to know of one that was good but I lost the link.

Here's some random things I've made over the past month.

With exceptions of the last eye picture they are all me.

NEW ED CHAT

most of the others aren't active or have mean not even ED'd (wannarexic) members.

I'm going to make sure mine is the biggest and the best.

http://xat.com/AnaRexMyLife

You wont regret it.

It's already getting popular!

Less than one day and already 14 members!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Still making people moderators.  New forum to open as well to go with the chatroom.  I'll reveal it when it's officialy open.

But I do need a few helpers with it.

I'm sorry

I'm using msn and aim again.

Add me AIM- xXxMandersxXx   MSN omg.its.manders@hotmail.com

I'm sorry I sounded rude in my last post.  I was just having a bad day.  But it's over with now.

I ate a lot last night.  I had only had 433 calories and then I had to go smoke some pot and get the mega munchies. lol.  Oh well, I felt good at least and got to chill with some friends for a while.  I probably had like 1,000 more calories I didn't count it but I plan on doing that here in a few.  My fan is making me cold.

MaryJane was sick yesterday.  Well I thought she was anyways.  She layed in bed all day while her brother and sister played around.  She only fed off her mother 4 times and since they are 8 weeks old now they don't eat enough from their mother to get the nutrition they need.  I ended up forcing fluids to her last night and this morning she used the potty and played but she's still in bed with me, but sitting up and looking around and playing with my feet so I'm pretty sure she's gonna be okay.  She also ate dry food and some milk out of my cereal lol.

Here's a picture of MaryJane that was taken at 5 weeks.  I don't have a digi cam so it's kinda shitty quality.

And while I'm at it, I'm gonna show you all some pictures I've made in photoshop.  They can be scary..but I like them. lolz.

Yeahhhhhh these three are me and my husband is the last one.

And here are a few more things I've made latley.

  I love this one it makes me look like an old photograph!

^My aunt in law, but I call her my aunt cuz I have no family of my own. LOL sad but true.

And here is me looking fat as fuck, GHETTO BOOTY.  You woudln't believe those were a size 00 which was tight on me at the time.  I probably weighed 100 or close to it in this picture.  BUT IT"S STILL COOL AS FUCK in my opinion at least.

I need to find the one where I made myself loose weight and get massive tits....*goes to find it* sexeh.

And here are 2 random others I feel like showin off.

This is my hobby.  Anyone want me to make anything for them or do any pics for them I'll for sure do it gladly.